Thank You for Trying
Dear Body,
I know things have not been easy. In fact, they have been extremely difficult. You have been through so much pain, discomfort, confusion, exhaustion and more. You have withstood it all, hour after hour, day after day, even at its cruelest and most unrelenting. I am tired too and I know that sometimes it must have felt like I was angry with you, or disappointed, or even afraid of you. But today, I want to say something different. Something you may not hear enough:
THANK YOU.
Thank you for staying with me through every difficult moment. For carrying me, even when I didn’t feel carried. For showing up, again and again, as sure as the sun rises, even when your signals were scrambled, and nothing made sense.
I know it is not your fault. The symptoms or signs of healing, the fear, the sensations: they are not you failing me. They are you trying. Trying to find balance. Trying to protect me. Trying to heal. They are all part of and a path to my full healing.
You have been truly loyal and your devotion to making things right again has been unwavering. You have been working so hard behind the scenes recalibrating, resetting, rewiring, restoring what was disrupted. It is not visible, this work. It is quiet, slow, and sacred. But I believe in you and I believe in your innate intelligence, resilience, and self-healing capabilities.
There have been moments I doubted. Times I became overwhelmed by catastrophic thinking, comparing notes, and trying to find logical explanations for my signs of healing/symptoms. I was often distressed and disheartened. But even then, you kept going. You never stopped trying to bring me back to safety. To Hope. To peace. To life.
So today, I want to say: I am grateful for you. I understand that if I am breathing, I am healing. I know you will never stop working on restoring equilibrium and good, vibrant health. I forgive myself for not always understanding your goals and your unwavering dedication. And I trust you now.
My Dear Body, let us persevere. Let us keep going together, gently. Let us rest when we need to. Be proactive when we can. Nurture and nourish what we can. And, more than anything, let us never lose faith in this remarkable healing process that is still unfolding.
With much compassion, love, and deep gratitude,
Me